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    Ilya thinks about the last night they spent together, thinks about Shane splayed out on a hotel mattress pleading for his touch, thinks about how they hadn’t even kissed, and it starts as a strange little tickle in the back of his throat. Barely-there. He could ignore it if he wanted.

    Then the intensity grows, flourishes into full-blow irritation, and suddenly he’s sputtering on his Coke and attracting the attention of the woman in the first-class seat across the aisle from him. He thinks it’s just some odd coughing fit, or that he inhaled his soda on accident, so he’s shocked when he feels something soft and smooth and triangular against his tongue.

    It’s not until he spits the object into the napkin he’d received with his drink that he can see what it is: a long, thin, green leaf. A sepal.

    As soon as Ilya realizes what he’s looking at, he’s flooded with dread.

    Ilya's known these feelings were doomed from the start. He never thought they'd literally kill him.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself,

    “Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…”

    He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.

    They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb.

    Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Just like the original, surprisingly sweet and tender once our boys fall for each other

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    Of course Yuna has a burner account, not just one, many in fact. She uses them for her job as Shane’s manager, to keep tabs on hockey news, the league, rumor mills, and on occasion, Rozanov.

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    How Yuna comes to care for Ilya through twitter before ever meeting him. AKA Ilya clinches the title ‘favourite son’ arguably before Shane’s parents find out about their relationship.

    Spans the entire timeline of Heated Rivalry.

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    10 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 97

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    “When was the last time you ate or drank anything?” Yuna quickly scans the bedside tables. There’s a mug with a dried brown bottom and a can of coke, presumably empty, since it’s lying on its side without any spills.

    The mountain of covers shifts once as if Ilya shrugs underneath. She’s certain he’s not eaten anything that day, and maybe even the day before.

    “I brought soup. I can heat some up and bring it over to the bed?”

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    Yuna Hollander takes care of Ilya Rozanov during one of his “quiet” episodes and attempts to communicate through the universal love language of food.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander has been Ilya Rozanov’s manager for nearly a decade. But when Shane suddenly announces his resignation, Ilya is forced to confront some truths about their relationship.

    Like the fact that he may have been secretly in love with Shane the entire time they’ve worked together.

    or: Shane is clinically oblivious, Ilya is about to commit HR violations worthy of Olympic gold, and everyone else kind of thought they were already hooking up (wait, they’re not hooking up?).

    Sports Manager!Shane x Hockey Player!Ilya
    🗓️Two Weeks Notice inspired AU

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    31 May 2026

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    Ilya is wallowing after getting back from Montreal, when there's a knock at his door. Shane Hollander is here, and probably definitely going to break up with him for real.

    or: alternate version where shane flew to boston after his convo with rose, instead of waiting for the all-star game

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    30 May 2026

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    “Ilya, hey, hey,” Shane says, setting the plates down and hurrying around the table to Ilya’s side. “What’s wrong, why are you crying?”

    Ilya hiccups. “Is fine. Is nothing. I am just crying because Pike is so ugly,” he blubbers. “And it is so sad that these beautiful children have to look at his face every day.”

    Pike waits until Ilya’s got his hands over his eyes to meet Shane’s gaze and mouth 'what the FUCK'.

    Or: after Shane moves to Ottawa, Ilya develops a habit of randomly bursting into tears.

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    30 May 2026

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    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

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    30 May 2026

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    Shane
    Last chance. Take your tank top back.

    Lily
    no, it's a fucking gift
    keep it

    Shane
    Fine.
    I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.

    Lily
    what the hell is that supposed to mean???
    hollander
    fuck

    Shane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.

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    29 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Petty spiteful confident Shane, my beloved

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    “You’re home,” Shane breathed. He sounded relieved. Like he had been waiting for him, like he wanted Ilya there. 

    Ilya felt something blossom in his chest, something only Shane knew how to grow. 

    “I did not know you knew how to make shchi.”

    “I don’t,” Shane said with a laugh, his face turning even redder. He was embarrassed, Ilya realized. “It’s kind of a ‘learn as I go’ thing.”

    Ilya took a step forward, surveying the kitchen. “So you decided to learn today? Did I miss special occasion, is it National Treat Your Russian Boyfriend Day?”

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    i just really wanted ilya to be shanes baby im sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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    27 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    "I love loving you"

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    “Hollander? You are still here?” Rozanov called, breaking the TV static silence filling Shane’s head. He blinked. 

    “Uh. Yeah, just leaving,” he answered, surprised by how steady his voice sounded. Good, that was good. He knew he couldn’t show Rozanov any weakness if he wanted to keep coming back.

    But did he want to come back if it made him feel like this?

    “Door is too heavy? Or I fuck you too good, you cannot move legs,” came Rozanov’s taunting response. Shane could practically see the tilted smirk on his face, cigarette smoke wafting around his freshly-showered curls. 

    “Fuck off, Rozanov,” Shane muttered.
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    Or, I wrote something to add to the pile of subdrop!Shane in Vegas fics because legally by law I had to

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    27 May 2026

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    Shane leaves professional hockey before locker room homophobia and contractual obligations can destroy him.
    Somehow, inexplicably, he winds up on the Savannah Bananas, an exhibition baseball team.
    He coaches skating for kids in the off season.
    For the first time in years, Shane has fun again.
    (He doesn't think about Ilya Rozanov or those two nights they shared together)
    (He doesn't give Rozanov his number when, years later, they reunite)
    (Except actually he does)
    (It's the best thing he's ever done)

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    26 May 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane makes a list: reasons to Come Out on one side and to Stay Safe on the other. It's definitely not meant to accidentally star in the background of his mom's Instagram post for fans to find.

    But now that the world knows, maybe Shane can finally let himself have everything he's wanted.

    If only Ilya didn't go out and get engaged the next day. Which is fine! Rozanov was settling down? Shane could settle down, too. He would find himself a nice man.

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    24 May 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 99

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    Shane flushes and his eyes sharpen, just as Ilya had hoped they would. Shane finally turns around, and Ilya doesn’t bother to hide the way his smile widens. He leans over Shane, boxing him back into the dresser. 

    He leans in to rub his nose against Shane’s cheek, inhaling his cologne - clean, sharp notes of citrus and spice. Shane reaches up and puts a hand in Ilya’s hair, tugging sharply to pull him back so Shane can look him in the eye. 

    “If anyone looks at you tonight,” Shane says flatly, “I’ll kill them.”

    Ilya makes a dreamy hum, and wraps his arms around Shane’s waist, nosing into his neck. He always wants to be touching Shane, wants to eat him up sometimes. “Okay.” 

     
    Or: Ilya is finally, finally, right where he wants to be.

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    24 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    To be loved is to be known... and maybe also to have someone match your freak

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    Shane decides he should let everyone believe he has a hook-up in every city, so it will no longer seem suspicious that he always disappears in Boston. While Shane is proud of himself for the ruse and for the ability to explore new places after away games, Ilya handles the new rumor with grace and dignity. Which is to say he suddenly feels the need to text and maybe even call Shane on his roadies to see if he can keep him occupied.

    Based on a Tumblr post listed below.

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    22 May 2026

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    “Wait, Mr. Raiders fan,” Rozanov calls.

    Constable Sullivan pauses.

    “I get a phone call, yes?”

    “Sure.” He pulls out his own phone. “Do you know the number?”

    Rozanov nods. The numbers all come out in a rush, as though he’s memorized it in one long string and can’t think of any of them separately.

    It’s a Montreal area code, the constable notes, as he types it in. As the phone rings, he puts it on speaker and asks Rozanov: “Who is it?”

    “Shane Hollander.”

    “Fuck off. Who is it really?”

    Or: in the midst of the Rose breakup, the Raiders win a game in Montreal. Unable to do what he normally does after Montreal games, Ilya goes out to a club, gets super drunk, and ends up getting picked up by Montreal police for public intoxication. Sitting in a holding cell, the only number he can remember is Shane's.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane sends him a text that says 'thinking about your cock' with a picture of his rippling abs, and even though Ilya really appreciates the abs, all he can think about is the faint bruise blooming on Shane's ribs, and whether it hurts him very badly, and whether there's anything Ilya could do to make it hurt less, if he were there. He wants to be there, he realizes. He wants to be there for the rest of his life.

    He has to duck out of the team weight room so he can cough up a fistful of petals.

    So.

    -

    Or: Ilya gets Hanahaki disease.

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    22 May 2026

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    “Hollander’s Metros have had a challenging few years, with back-to-back knee injuries and a concussion keeping the two-time Stanley Cup winner and Olympic gold medalist off the ice for three consecutive postseason runs. Hollander is apparently back to fighting trim, but everyone’s wondering if that will still be true come April. The Metros have promised that they’re behind their franchise star one hundred percent, but there are signs they might be hedging their bets. The Metros announced last week that they have penned a deal with San Francisco’s dynamic young Russian star, center Ilya Rozanov. The move has sent shockwaves through MLH, as San Francisco was widely expected to sign a contract extension with Rozanov, who became a restricted free agent in June.”

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    11 May 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    08 May 2026

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