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There were rules.
Carefully crafted, regimented to every action and thought he had made since he turned seventeen. Their words a mantra in his head that made him scrape by just enough, made him perform just right, so no one would be able to tell that deep down some part of him was rotting.
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Ilya Rozanov gets a phone call out of the blue from his sister-in-law informing him that his brother has died. Out of tradition he grabs the bottle of sealed vodka from the kitchen to give his brother a final toast goodbye but finds himself faced with breaking the rules around alcohol he put in place when he was seventeen but it's fine, right? He doesn't have a problem, does he?
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The fall of the great Grigori Rozanov began long before anyone could spot the crumbling foundations. A series of silent strokes, the doctors had told him. Undetectable, seemingly insignificant infarctions with no outward symptoms to show for until the first name failed to find purchase in his lips, lost in a sea of memories and confusion.
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A small piece detailing the thoughts of Ilya as he is on the plane to Russian after finding out about the death of his father.
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There Must Be Balance by usssamwell
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series), Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series)
17 Oct 2025
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"His sleeping conditions are less than desired, honestly a hotel or even a middle rate inn would have been nicer, but despite the shiver running down his spine and the mud seeping into his clothes none of it matters because he’s glowing; his tattoos are glowing."
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Post 4x03 Spoilers - The Soldiers make camp one night on their way to Timmony, Wicander cannot sleep and reflects on the events that happened in the Villa Aurora, the Filament tattooed on his face, and what it means for him.
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Obi-Wan stared blankly at the flask as the old man gestured to the wreck around them. He remembered the children in the Young, how they reminded him of his creche mates, the girl in his arms; they weren't nearly old enough for everything going on. But they were old enough to die, a voice cried out inside his head. Obi-Wan took the flask and held it to his lips, the liquid burning his throat as it went down. He'd never felt so cold.
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From the perspective of Obi-Wan Kenobi, from padawan up to 9BBY, this is a take on his life as if he suffered from alcohol misuse and how it impacted his life.
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Back then he had been so sure of everything, of his faith, of his purpose in life, but that faith had died the first time Yusuf’s blade pierced his skin.
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A little prose on Nicky's inner conflict around religion and what worship truly means.
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More Than a Boyfriend by Itsallfine
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is happier than he’s ever been and it’s all due to Jane. And yet, for some reason that Cliff can’t fathom, he refuses to propose to her. Cliff’s had enough. Rozy is going to buy a ring today.
Cue Ilya buying a men’s engagement ring.
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08 Jul 2026
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Shane Hollander's Guide to Winning Free Agency by DistantStorm
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Jul 2026
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Shane Hollander is a UFA on July 1, 2019 at 12pm Eastern. An Unrestricted Free Agent, or UFA for short, is a player of a certain tenure whose contract has ended and can sign with any team of their choosing. If it were anyone else, a player walking to his UFA day would strike fear into the fans and managers hearts. They could lose a player for nothing.
On the morning of July 1, 2019, with Shane Hollander set to test free agency, the Montreal Metros and their fanbase aren't worried. It's well documented that Shane Hollander has always held out for the best deal, and being a free agent is his leverage. Everyone knows that he’ll sign another deal with the Metros.
But maybe everyone is wrong.
(Alternatively: the one where Shane Hollander finds out ahead of schedule that Ilya Rozanov is lonely.)
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07 Jul 2026
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congratulations, you're pregnant! by shaneverse
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
06 Jul 2026
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"Dr. Hollander..." Luca's voice came out low, almost cautious. "I think there's a gestational sac."
Shane stared at the student for a moment before letting out a short laugh.
"Good try." He waved a dismissive hand. "Now tell me what's actually on the screen."
No one answered.
The silence sent a chill up the back of Shane's neck.
He turned his head toward the monitor, expecting to find a cyst, an artifact, or anything else that would justify this collective reaction.
It was a gestational sac.
No.
Or: Shane Hollander is a radiologist, an alpha, and happily married to another alpha. One routine teaching session leaves him with an impossible diagnosis and five students keeping the biggest secret in modern medicine.
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07 Jul 2026
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Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.
Or, hopefully, her son.
“Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”
Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.
(how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)
(chapters can standalone but will be updated as inspiration strikes)
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07 Jul 2026
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The Love You Make by chellefic
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
05 Jul 2026
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In 2012, Shane learns of the dangers faced by gay and bisexual men in Russia. He becomes determined to protect Ilya. This changes everything.
The full story stretches over the next several years, but each year will be posted as an individual story, as I finish them.
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06 Jul 2026