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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    30 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 87

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    29 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 97

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    This will be a series of unconnected one shots as several will directly contradict each other, but I already have about a dozen half written out.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.

    Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.

    Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MLH sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.

    or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing. Can still be read.)

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Shane is boring the way a sniper is boring. Boring the way a glacier is boring. Very slow, very quiet, very inevitable, and then suddenly you're kinda fucked.

    Or, Ilya deserves a medal for the number of lives he's saved with the power of his dick and the ability to fuck the concept of revenge out of his husband's mind.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    Phil Coulson grew up in Night Vale. Somehow SHIELD is both more terrifying and easier to survive than his childhood home.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    Where the loss of ignorance is more valuable than the knowledge gained, and Edward figures out the source of alchemy a lot sooner than before.

    "Edward has cockroaches under his skin and leeches in his veins. He's vibrating and bursting and his body is too small, too big, doesn't fit quite right. He needs Al to know - needs to tell someone, anyone, but he will cut out his own tongue before he burdens anyone else with this knowledge."

    (Now with a TV Tropes page!)

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov fell in love in 2008. Just because their love story has to remain behind closed doors, doesn't mean they have to pretend it's not happening.

    a fix-it from the beginning, where they actually get their cute romance.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    25 Jan 2026

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    11 Dec 2025

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    So, I've been hoarding drabbles and oneshots from various fandoms for years and I decided to put some of these bad boys out there. Will mainly feature BAMFness and angst, few if any pairings but lots of friendship, and some crossovers. I might also put out some prompts, in case anyone's interested.

    Please consider all of these ideas up for adoption (with notice, please).

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    30 Nov 2025

  17. Public Bookmark 77

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    Probably the sharpest knife in his chest about this whole shitshow? Eddie thought they were doing good.

    Like: so fucking good.

    Eddie thought they were building something.

    He’s such an idiot. Such a…

    A heartsick fucking idiot.

    But if he steps back, is as logical as he's capable of being: there hadn’t been any signs that they weren’t laying the foundations of something lasting; that they weren’t in this deep and rooted and committed, serious in a real, tangible way and, just…

    Forever. Eddie was…he was playing for keeps, here. He thought, he just—

    He really thought he wasn’t alone in all this.

    Again: idiot.

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    Or: Eddie never thought Steve would stop wanting him. He maybe went in reticent at first, but Steve had loved hard out the gate—so as soon as he knew he was allowed, and welcome? Eddie didn't hesitate to meet that love beat for beat.

    He just never imagined his love would ever be unwelcome; that that's how his heart would break.


    But that's just one side of the story, isn't it?

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    21 Nov 2025

  18. Public Bookmark 11

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    "i’ll teach you.” he said it effortlessly, like voluntarily spending time with her was a gift, rather than a chore. “that is… if you’re sure you aren’t too cool for it.”

    she raised an eyebrow. “i don’t think it’s possible to be cool after spending a day trapped in a russian elevator with you.” lucas gave her a look at that, gesturing toward the kitchen where their mom was making lunch, but dustin didn’t flinch.

    “touché nerd.” he barged into her room uncaringly and plopped himself down on the floor, gesturing for her to sit across from him.

    “you two have fun,” lucas said, sounding like he definitely thought they wouldn’t. erica flipped him off.

    “don’t be a douche.”

    “yeah, lucas, don’t be a douche,” dustin teased. lucas gave his best friend an offended look.

    “you’re unbelievable.”

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    18 Nov 2025

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    stories set in a world where steve goes with joyce, hopper, and murray to the russian facilities beneath starcourt, and doesn't return.

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    18 Nov 2025

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    “I’m sorry for ruining your night.” A deep shuddering breath echoes through the woods. Steve hurts. His chest aching something awful and so tight he can’t breathe. “I’m so-” his voice breaks as does the damn holding back all his tears. Now it’s Eddie’s turn to feel his eyes burn. “I’m so sorry, Eddie. I’m sorry for everything. I never – I never wanted – I never meant things for to end up like this.”

    Eddie’s brown eyes meet Steve’s hazel. Tears fill Steve’s eyes and despite everything - despite how broken Steve looks, despite how angry Eddie is, he can’t help but think he’s still so beautiful. Eddie wants to say it. Throat aching with the need to say something, anything to get Steve to stay and let him help. It hits Eddie hard that this is the first time he has ever seen Steve cry. Steve who always put on such a strong front, who hid his sadness and fear under false smiles. All the anger and fury from five minutes ago left Eddie only to be replaced by such a twisted feeling that whatever is haunting Steve won’t be stopping anytime soon, and it’s something so much bigger than he could ever imagine.

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    16 Oct 2025

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