Pale_Blue
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i've been seeing ghosts again by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
22 Jun 2026
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Following the move to Ottawa, Ilya is struggling to keep his head above water. The Centaurs seem incapable of winning, his house is still half-unpacked at best, and Shane is two hours away in Montreal. After months of struggling alone, Ilya unexpectedly shows up at the Hollanders’ house one night, terrified of his own thoughts.
In the months that follow, Ilya hits low after low, struggling with his newly-diagnosed depression. David and Yuna do their best to be there for him while distance is still keeping Shane and Ilya apart.
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Ten years ago, Cas told Dean he loved him before being taken by the Empty. Dean never moved past it, isolating himself from everyone and trying to find a way to bring Cas back. Ten years to the day, and he’s ready to try one last ritual.
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deep breath, exhale by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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Shane looked at Ilya carefully. At the curled-up posture, at eyes that were too shiny to hide the fact he’d been crying. Bare toes in the damp grass, jaw clenched like he couldn’t relax even with the nicotine.
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked, softly.
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forgive my northern attitude (i was raised on little light) by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Mar 2026
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“You left your phone,” Shane said, pointing at the device where Ilya had left it. It was still sitting on the table, like an innocent witness to the proceedings.
“Sorry?” Ilya said, a crease deepening between his eyes as he stared at Shane in bewilderment. “Shane, I do not understand.”
“You’ve barely made it out of bed the last few days. I come home and you’re gone and your phone is here. What was I supposed to think?!”
Ilya stared at him, and then his eyes narrowed. Hardened into something that promised a summer storm.
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we both love the smoke in our lungs by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Feb 2026
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There was a bruise darkening under Rozanov’s right eye.
Shane reached across and ran a finger over the puffy swell of it, gentle and careful, pulling away immediately when Rozanov winced.
“I would say sorry you got punched, but you were being an asshole out there.”
Ilya pulled his face out of reach of Shane’s searching fingers and shrugged. Like he got punched all the time and it was no big deal.
They were collapsed across each other on the bed, half-under the covers, half-exposed to the slightly too stuffy room. Rozanov’s sweat-damp curls were hanging in messy disarray across his forehead, lips still slightly swollen and red. He looked best like this, Shane decided vaguely, watching the minute twitch of Rozanov’s jaw, the long line of his throat. Bruised up and sweaty, limbs loose and sprawled out on the bed like it belonged to him.
“I got a punch in also,” Rozanov mused, blinking up at the popcorn ceiling. “So is fine.”
Recent series
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and my waves meet your shore (ever and evermore) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Supernatural (TV 2005)
10 Dec 2025
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Little slice of life moments
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- Works:
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can’t change the weather (might not be forever) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Feb 2026
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- 2,961
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- 2
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- 9
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Things have gotten worse (since we last met) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child - Thorne & Rowling
14 Jun 2025
- Words:
- 10,915
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- 3
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- 2
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Sherlock Holmes and the Wizarding World by Pale_Blue
Fandom Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Sherlock (TV), Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms
26 Mar 2023
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- 6,241
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- 1
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A Different Form of Communication by Pale_Blue
Fandom The Lord of the Rings (Movies), The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien
06 Jan 2019
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- 2,004
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A Soft Small Body by CatGrass
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
20 Jun 2026
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Ilya honestly doesn't remember much for the next few weeks. He remembers waking up, occasionally, his body and their bed empty. The sun high and Shane's side of the bed cold. He remembers watching the sheets change color under the moving sun. He remembers not really caring. He remembers apple slices, left on his bedside table with sweet notes he cannot recall. He remembers nibbling on one and feeling the honeyed tang of it spill over his dry mouth.
Ilya remembers Shane's arms around his waist and his chest pressed against his back. He remembers Shane whispering “I love you” like it means ‘I miss you.’
Ilya misses him too.
(Or, After a depressive episode, Ilya has to change his meds, his new ones give him sexual dysfunction. Everyone (mostly Ilya) has some Feelings about this. Shane comes up with a creative solution to make Ilya feel better.)
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- Part 4 of Sub Top Ilya Week 2026
- Language:
- English
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- 10,652
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- Kudos:
- 118
- Bookmarks:
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Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
22 Jun 2026
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(16. Morning, 742 words) TW: depression
--Mornings are sometimes particularly hard for Ilya. He’s never explained why to Shane, but the longer they’re together, the more Shane sees without asking.
He sees the way Ilya sometimes lies there, unmoving, staring at the ceiling long before the alarm goes off. He sees the distance in his gaze. The longing. The slight trembling in his hands. He sees the way Ilya will turn away from him so he doesn’t notice the sheen to his eyes, that he’s starting to cry. That his chest is heavy and that he’s carrying a weight that’s not his to bear. That Ilya doesn’t know how to fix it; that he thinks something is wrong with him.
Shane sees every crack in his armor and loves him all the same.
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- Part 28 of hollanov microfics collection
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
17 Jun 2026
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He’s lucky that he has enough money from his savant career to pay other people to handle his bullshit, because he doesn’t think he could do it alone.
The water is deep. Shane calls for help.
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
16 Jun 2026
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grey november by roxykris
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
15 Jun 2026
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Ilya is four days into what he will not call anything, and Shane is bad at this, and neither of them is going to say so. It's late November, Ottawa is grey, and Shane drives forty minutes he'll never admit to because something about the last phone call didn't sit right.
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- Part 16 of heated rivalry sickfics
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
16 Jun 2026
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eating plums in the night by Ginevra_Benci
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
11 Jun 2026
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Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov isn't much of a reader. But his first spring in Ottawa, watching playoffs happen to other people, he finds he has time on his hands.
It's probably his luck, that the first book he picks up might be about him.
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
11 Jun 2026