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Often, Lately by AngelWithoutAShotgun
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 May 2026
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“Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.”
April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.
Ilya goes through with ending it.
Shane lets him.
What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.
They learn how to live without each other.
(Or at least, how to pretend.)
And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.
And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.
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22 Jun 2026
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Matters of the ̶H̶e̶a̶r̶t̶ Soul by nomsy
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 May 2026
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“Surprised?” Rozanov asks.
“There’s nothing – this is nothing,” Shane forces out.
“Soulmates is something,” Rozanov says.
“You know you should say Connected Person, not soulmate,” Shane says. “It’s old-fashioned and sugar-coating.”
Rozanov takes a drag of his cigarette and looks Shane up and down. “Sugar? You think is always sweet and fun?”
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Shane and Ilya are soulmates. A lot of it is sweet, and some of it is hard.
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22 Jun 2026
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honey, tell me, are you good at staying still? by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Jun 2026
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Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.
He can just exist here.
Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.
(Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)
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15 Jun 2026
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If it wasn't for that meddling kid by ARustySpork for TastyTeeth
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 May 2026
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“I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”
“Yes.”
The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.
“Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”
Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”
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or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house
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- Part 1 of If it wasn't for that meddling kid
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10 Jun 2026
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Hold On (I Still Want You) by velminort
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jan 2026
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Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.
Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."
And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.
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They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.
“Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”
He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.
Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.
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- Part 1 of Hold On (I Still Want You)
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Ilya R has been added to the group chat. by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
30 Apr 2026
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Bood
what have you given her before?Ilya
A fucking, mostlyBood
CHEAP
CHEAP GIFT GIVERIlya enlists Bood & the Ottawa WAGs to help brainstorm ideas for his first proper Valentine’s Day with ‘Jane’.
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- Part 1 of O-Town’s Fillies Back Again
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love brought weight to this heart of mine by sweetshane
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Feb 2026
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Shane tries to remember, peering into the darkness surrounding the car with a furrowed brow. It hurts to move, and he feels something warm and slick sliding down his cheek.
More blood, his mind supplies rather unhelpfully.
He was driving after dark, but he shouldn’t have been. He wasn’t supposed to be. They had all night together, so why is he here?
I already chose you, Hollander.
Shane inhales sharply as his mind slowly fills in the gaps in his memory. They fought. Ilya told him to leave. Shane did.
And then he crashed.
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- Part 1 of Love Brought Weight
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06 Jun 2026
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As the Romans Do by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
01 Jun 2026
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As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.
So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.
(He’s jealous.)
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04 Jun 2026
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“I want to fuck you before my dick stops working.”
“You know that’s a possible side effect, right? We don’t know that’s gonna happen.”
“Mm. If I expect it I will not be disappointed.”
“If it does, we’ll figure something out. And—“
“A broken dick is better than a broken brain.”
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or; ilya takes medication and he can't come like he usually does so they try something new. also emotions and tenderness and love.
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They were only forty-five minutes late to the barbecue, all told, and yet Ilya was right. Bood called out, “Nice of you to show up, Cap!” from behind the grill. Ilya squeezed Shane’s forearm hard, once, and then headed over to talk to the host. Shane could’ve followed him, he knew, but he didn’t want to stand there awkwardly, feeling like he should say something but not sure when to cut in. On the Metros, everyone had known Shane was a little quiet in groups, knew the kinds of conversations he was comfortable having, when to ask his opinion. The Centaurs wanted something different from him, or maybe Shane wanted to be something different to them. Either way, he stood by the backyard gate while Ilya headed toward Bood, until Hayes called out from the fire, “Get over here, Hollander!”
(in other words: shane figures out how to be a teammate and someone's husband all at the same time. ilya lives several of the best days of his life all in a row. & everyone else has a great time as well)
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01 Jun 2026
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“Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”
“That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.
That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.
He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”
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30 May 2026
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There are fewer pillows, now that Ilya sometimes spends the night. You don’t even like those ones, Ilya had said. It’s your bed. What is the point, if you do not like it?
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30 May 2026
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The beginning of the process was fairly easy. Ilya turned on the new phone and followed the directions to start the transfer, but it stalled out at the same step as it had for the genius person. Ilya spent some time scrolling through Reddit and checking if it was his photos, or maybe his contacts, until he saw a post from BigPapi27: my problem was with my voicemail lolll never checked it and it was full as hell. had to clear it out and then everything was fine.
Well. That was probably it. Ilya didn’t think he’d checked his voicemail since he’d played for Boston. He wasn’t even sure where it lived on the phone, so he googled that too, and found out that not all the notifications on the phone call app were from missed calls. A lot of them were, but just as many were voicemails he hadn’t known were taking up all this space, causing him problems.
And, he realized as he scrolled, so many of them were from Shane.
(or, shane starts leaving ilya voicemails. years later, ilya finds them all)
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30 May 2026
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“She likes to haunt my freezer,” Ilya says, as Shane shuffles out of his Reeboks and into a pair of Ilya’s house slippers.
It had seemed like a joke, when Ilya first brought it up. Their last morning at the cottage, dropped casually as they scrambled eggs together in the kitchen, a parting gag for the road. Oh, by the way, you know that dead mother I told you about? The one who killed herself and left me to find the body? Yes, okay, so, she is also a ghost and she haunts me. Well, my house, really. No, I am serious, Hollander! I am so serious, Russians do not joke, please! You do not believe me? You do not trust me? Fine. You will come over to my place some time and I will show you. She likes flowers, please bring daffodils.
Shane brought the daffodils.
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- Part 25 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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30 May 2026
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“Just-” Ilya starts, intending to tease, the offer of a massage more about getting Hollander back in a more relaxed headspace than anything else, but then the wire-tight tension in the muscles under his fingers registers, and he frowns, pressing testingly before making a noise of disapproval. “Fuck, Hollander, you are secretly doing crime or what?”
“What?” Hollander asks, confused, starting to lift his head before Ilya pushes it back down absently, focused now on feeling out the knots Hollander seems to be completely made of. He’s felt tension in Hollander’s shoulders before, usually during coaxing little squeezes while coaching him through learning how to deep throat, but he’s always written it off as nerves from learning something new.
Now he wonders if Hollander is just nerves, period.
(the "ilya massages shane" fic inspired by hudson saying that playing shane made him sore because he was so tense all the time)
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27 May 2026
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“...oh,” his mom says. “Oh, honey, you were seeing someone? You never said anything.”
“It’s-it’s complicated.” He catches the present tense too fucking late to do anything about it, and he barely resists the urge to either groan or slip forward to start beating his head against the coffee table.
Fuck his fucking life.
“You’re still…seeing this person?” His mom asks, and the amount of control he can hear her exerting is almost painful. “Who is-”
“Yuna,” his dad cuts in, voice quiet, “maybe give him a second, yeah?”
Yeah, Shane agrees in his head. Give him a second.
Maybe give him a decade while they’re at it.
(when shane's old fake id falls out of his wallet around his parents, he has to explain that it was to book hotel rooms before he was 21)
(...and then he has to explain why he needed to book those hotel rooms in the first place)
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26 May 2026
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Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
But Shane is in a hospital.And Ilya is here.
He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.
“Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”
Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.
(canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)
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26 May 2026
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in which gansey is the loneliest most connection-starved boy in the world, and ronan is full of light and love and warmth by elliptical
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater
19 Oct 2019
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“I am going to strangle you. Jesus Christ.”
“Come on.” Ronan leans across the gearshift, now, knocks his elbow against Gansey’s arm. “Don’t you ever just want to love being alive, man?”
“You,” Gansey says, slightly calmer, but still with the air of a witness damning a defendant, “are a terrible influence.”
“God,” Ronan says happily, “I hope so.”
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Or, a fic about how Ronan saved Gansey long before Gansey ever needed to save him.
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26 May 2026
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It wasn’t fair, because Shane didn’t even do it on purpose. His ignorance was a product of years of repression. They’ve been together for more than a decade, and they’ve fucked, fought, and everything in between — but somehow Shane was still oblivious to the warning signs of his heat. In the days before it came, Shane would pace about the house in a huff; sweat on his brow, gnawing on a candy bar, complaining about a headache, befuddled as to his own state of dysfunction.
He always smelled like absolute fucking sin too. It took all Ilya had not to drop to Shane’s feet, mouth open, tongue at the ready, and offer his enthusiastic services. Ilya tried to do so, early on in their relationship, but Shane kicked him away like he was a nosy terrier, tsked at and scolded for its eagerness to serve.
Finicky little omega. Ilya would die for him, truly.
(Or, the trials and tribulations of Shane Hollander's heat cycle).
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Coming out to the Pike's was not the plan for the evening.
It wasn't even in the top 10 list.
And yet, here Shane is, sitting on their living room floor, having fought Rose Landry to get his phone back, and making a Face. He knows he is making a face, he can feel his forehead scrunching and his jaw aching and he can do nothing about it except wait for -
"So who's Lily?!"
Fuck.
This is mostly a series of vignettes focusing on Shane's friendships with Rose, Jackie and Hayden, in that order.
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24 May 2026