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"What— what do you see?"
"I see," Eddie says, measured, careful, "someone who looks like he wanted somebody to see him like that."
Buck's whole body goes hot.
"And I'm trying to decide," Eddie continues, slower now, his breath heavier, "whether I'm allowed to be that somebody."
The hand on Buck's thigh has migrated upward. He notices it three seconds after it happens, his palm now resting flat against his own stomach where his shirt has rucked up, fingers splayed across the skin. The touch of his own hand on his own body in this context is sending a current up his spine that he is, evidently, helpless to stop.
"Eddie." Buck's voice cracks. "Are you— are you jerking off to my photo?"
The pause is brief but loaded, and when Eddie answers it’s barely recognizable, every word landing somewhere in the south of Buck's body with a measurable physical impact.
"You send me a picture like that, Buck. What am I supposed to do?"
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Buck wins a boudoir photoshoot giveaway. Eddie reaps the benefits.Or,
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15 Jul 2026
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“Well?” Buck said, finally facing Bobby. “Is it what you wanted? What you expected to happen? You told me they wouldn’t let me back. You told me, pushed, actually, saying I wasn’t ready. Said they were the ones holding me back and that’s why I had to find another job for the time being.”
“This isn’t what I wanted.” Bobby said quietly.
“Ok.” Buck nodded. “I guess … I guess that’s that.” Buck walked over and took the letter back and kept walking to head toward the stairs to actually clean out his locker.
“What the hell is going on?” Eddie demanded.
“I’m being transferred.” Buck said, looking back over his shoulder.
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- Part 77 of 9-1-1 AUs
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04 Jul 2026
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Hen hears Buck's dad talking to him, and is stunned that Buck doesn't respond.
Athena hears Buck's mom talking to him, and is shocked by what she hears. More shocked that Buck doesn't say anything.
Eddie hears Buck's mom talking to him under her breath and the only reason he doesn't tell her to fuck off is because Athena drags him away.
Bobby hears Buck's dad make rude comments, and doesn't understand why Buck doesn't defend himself.
Chimney is so confused by what's happening at the cook out. Until he's not. So he makes his apologies, knowing the road to Buck getting better is going to be long. Because Buck wasn't the only one who didn't say anything. None of them had. It was time for that to change.
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- Part 70 of 9-1-1 AUs
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04 Jul 2026
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“You ever think the universe is laughing at you?” Buck asked, looking back out over the city.
“Not particularly.” Hen said gently.
“It’s funny. Like, the whole, when you get to rock bottom and you don’t think there’s any more, any further to fall, right? But then it turns out you were wrong. Rock bottom wasn’t actually rock bottom. It was the overhang.”
“Overhang for what?” Hen asked worriedly.
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A small thing can topple the strongest of resolves. For Buck, it's been one thing after another after another. But he doesn't snap, he doesn't get loud, he doesn't want to be more of a burden.
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- Part 91 of 9-1-1 AUs
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04 Jul 2026
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Everyone was perfectly polite to him. They greeted him at the start of the shift and wished him a good 48 off when he left the station, they didn't give him dirty looks at the table and communicated about work. But Buck couldn't remember the last time someone asked him how his weekend was, involved him in a joke, or casually touched him. He couldn't remember the last time anyone touched him on purpose at all. Everyone kept a very safe distance from Buck. He wondered if they were scared he would sue them if they made a wrong move near him.
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Months after the lawsuit Buck is still on the outs with the 118. He is lonely and touch-starved. After a minor injury at work Buck goes home alone, spiralling about his life and how he misses his family. Then Eddie shows up at his door to talk.Bookmarked by illyria13
04 Jul 2026
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Post Lawsuit
Buck is back at the 118
Things are okay at work, normal even.
Outside of work not so much.Another Buck is hurting fic. 🤷♀️🥺
Yes I am obsessed with lawsuit era fic’s
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- Part 2 of All Based In The Lawsuit Era
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28 Jun 2026
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Post Lawsuit
Buck gets unexpected news
Buck decides it will be over in just three monthsSeries
- Part 6 of All Based In The Lawsuit Era
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28 Jun 2026
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On the way back from a call, Buck is abducted and brutally assaulted. The aftermath is messy: Buck insists he’s fine (he's not), Eddie is wracked with guilt (predictably), and Christopher knows way too much (as usual). As the 118 rallies around them, everyone has to grapple with the fallout of the violence and what it means for Buck, for Buck and Eddie, and for themselves.
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28 Jun 2026
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"Yes, hospital. Buck, we ha–"
"I have cancer."
Everything comes to a halting stop.
Or, Buck gets diagnosed with cancer right before he calls the lawsuit off and ends up taking the money
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- Part 1 of knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
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27 Jun 2026
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There’s a quiet determination to his step when he walks into the locker room that morning, but any and all thoughts he had come to a grinding halt as he takes in the scene before him. Buck is sitting on the bench, back to him, and blowing out air slowly like he’s bracing himself for something. That something turns out to be putting on a shirt.
He lifts his arms a fraction and immediately drops them with a hiss, movement tugging at the vicious splotch of purple and blue bloomed over the right side of his lower back.
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A close call on the side of the freeway has Eddie reevaluating his relationship with Buck, particularly how strained it's become due to Eddie's anger since the lawsuit. Some domestic love and more than a few heart to hearts have Eddie confessing things he should have a long time ago.
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27 Jun 2026
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Buck’s not suicidal, really, he’s not. There have been periods in his life when he contemplated it, but he’s never tried. That counts for something, right?
Where Buck writes more than one suicide note in his life, and Eddie finds them.
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26 Jun 2026
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Some of the 118 are having a hard after Buck returns from the lawsuit. Chimney is rude, Bobby is abrasive, and Eddie is cold. But it turns out that Buck is the one that is being hurt the most.
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26 Jun 2026
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Buck’s pre-heat is a secret—one he’s desperately trying to hide during a fire rescue. But when they get trapped underground and Buck’s heat breaks, Eddie can’t help but step in, fiercely protective and more possessive than anyone expects. With scent and need overwhelming them both, nothing will be the same after this.
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26 Jun 2026
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Something broke inside Buck in that grocery store. Eddie’s final words kept repeating inside his head. He was right; he was always right. All Buck ever did was hurt the people around him. It was why he had never stayed in one place for long before. Because inevitably, something was wrong inside of him, a piece that meant he would never belong. After meeting Eddie, he’d fooled himself into thinking maybe things could be different...maybe Buck could have a place in LA, with Eddie… but like always he was wrong. So, standing alone in the parking lot, Buck decided to do the one thing he did best: run.
Eddie had never been good at controlling the wolf inside of him. It was always angry, unsettled, at least until Buck came into his life. The last few weeks though, without Buck, he’d lost control more than once. When Buck came to apologize, he really hadn’t meant to snap at him and it didn’t take long to regret what he said. Only by the time he went looking for Buck he was too late. Buck was gone. Eddie had to find him, and tell him how sorry he was, how he needed Buck sometimes much it hurt. He just hoped Buck didn’t get into anymore trouble.
Or my Buddie werewolf AU that no one needs, but I’m doing anyway.
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- Part 1 of Noel's Buddie AUs
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26 Jun 2026
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Buck’s imagined finding his soulmate what must be thousands of times. Imagined the curve of their delighted smile, the warmth of their embrace. Usually, in his mind, they were a woman. As he grew older and knew himself better, he allowed himself to sometimes picture a man. Sometimes, before the truck bombing, he’d wished it would be Eddie himself.
But always, always, they wanted him.
The reality of the situation is a far cry from his daydreams: Buck, sitting on the cold tile, quietly weeping as he realizes that the person he’s been waiting for, the person he was made for, doesn’t want him after all.
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In a world where soulmates share scars, Buck has a few epiphanies after the shooting. One: Eddie is his soulmate. Two: Eddie has known this since the ladder truck, and hasn't said a word. Cue angst.
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26 Jun 2026
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He’s never seen Eddie like this before. The tension that has seemed permanent in his body these past few weeks, has completely left his shoulders. The pinched look in his eyes is gone. Over Eddie’s shoulders, Hen and Chim have come to investigate the ruckus, and they both appear just as shocked.
“What’s wrong?” Buck asks, wondering if he’s forgotten some terrible dog allergy from someone in the 118 family. He doesn’t think he has.
Suddenly, Chim turns and shouts, “Cap! Did you know that Peggy’s a dog!?”
Or, Buck gets a dog, the firefam are concerned about his new "girlfriend", and Eddie is definetly NOT losing his mind.
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24 Jun 2026
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Evan Buckley sues the city after he is told he's not allowed to return as a firefighter because his captain - who he had viewed as a father - thinks he wasn't capable anymore.
But when he realises that the lawsuit wasn't the way to go, it's too late and he's being ignored by the whole of the 118. So when he goes to the doctors for a routine check in after all that had happened with his leg in less than a couple months and is told that there may be something much worse wrong with him - he has no one to go to. No one to lean on. No one to help.
So when it's confired that Evan 'Buck' Buckley has cancer and that was the real cause behind his pulmonary embolism, he runs.
He tells no one. He quits the 118. Leaves fire fighting behind. And decides that without his family, there's no reason to fight the cancer.
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- Part 1 of Evan Buckley has Cancer
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18 Jun 2026
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While on the outs with the team after the lawsuit, Buck faces a decline in his quality of life as he runs out of funds and willpower. It's time he stopped asking everyone for so much. He can handle this on his own.
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18 Jun 2026
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Buck falls through the floor during a fire and reinjures his bad leg. Even though nothing is broken and everything seems pretty minor, he's hiding more than anyone knows.
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- Part 18 of Buddie Short Stuff
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12 Jun 2026
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“I’m never going to be able to make this up to you, am I?” Eddie whispered, hugging Buck tighter.
Buck shrugged.
Eddie sighed aimlessly, “I don’t think I will.” Which earned a small laugh from Buck.
“Eds?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m glad you came.”
“Well I’m glad you called.”
______Or, Buck’s family is being shitty after the lawsuit and he makes the decision to give up
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07 Jun 2026