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Moving slowly, Buck sits up in bed. Groans. Reaches the heel of his hands to press tenderly against his eyes. Inhales, taking in a deep breath. Exhales. Finally, he’s able to open his eyes, and he draws back his hands.
Then, he realizes.
These are not his hands.
Buck stares, flexing out his fingers - not his fingers. They’re long, slender, a little dainty. The index and middle fingers are home to delicate gold rings. The nails are press-ons, colored dark maroon, and what the actual fuck.
A sound comes from his mouth - not his mouth - and it’s a sweet, womanly squeak. Oh god oh god oh god.
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Or - the fic where Buck is in love with Eddie, wakes up every day in a different body, and has no idea what to do about either.
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25 Jun 2026
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this fic lives in my head now. like forever. for the rest of my life i think i will go about my days and randomly think of this fic. urrgrgrhhh <333
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Shannon Diaz née Garrett had a high tolerance for bullshit. You don’t get married at eighteen, become a mom at nineteen, and survive living under the omnipresent gaze of the world’s most… particular in-laws without developing many, many strategies for self-preservation. Every snide remark about Chris’ CP, every passive aggressive comment from Helena Diaz, every vertebra of Eddie’s liquid spine, Shannon took right on the chin with a smile on her face.
But there was no corner of Shannon’s life that she tested her extreme tolerance for bullshit more than whatever the Samwise-and-Frodo, Bert-and-Ernie, Crockett-and-Tubbs hell was going on between her ex-husband and his best friend.
(In which Shannon Diaz née Garrett lives, gets divorced, and helps her ex-husband realize that he’s in love with his best friend)
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24 Jun 2026
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The realization goes something like this, as Eddie sits under a flapping rainbow pride flag in the bay of the firehouse and studies its colors.
Red, like his cheeks when Buck smiles at him.
Orange, like the juice he wishes he'd started drinking years ago.
Yellow, like the color of Shannon's dress the day she died.
Green, like the jealousy that strangles him when he thinks about losing Buck.
Blue, like the color of the most beautiful eyes he knows.
Violet, like the bruise blooming on Buck's left cheekbone. Right where Eddie wants to place his lips.
And Eddie thinks, for the first time, that maybe he feels something approaching pride, or something adjacent to it at least, for himself.
Or; In one Pride Month, Eddie meets an old friend, learns about himself, comes out to people who love him and learns to be proud (in roughly that order).
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21 Jun 2026
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He plops down on the couch again, sets his elbows on his knees, and looks Eddie in the eye. “Okay. Soooo,” he says. “You’re asking me to marry you.”
“Yes,” Eddie says.
“On a Wednesday,” Buck says.
“Yep.”
“As a friend.”
Eddie’s nose scrunches. “Ye-ep. Just about covers it.”
“Why?”
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or: eddie and buck embark on the most platonic journey of all: marriage!
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30 May 2026
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i've seen the paths that your eyes wander down (i want to come, too) by teaspoonmoon for Kympossible
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
30 Jul 2025
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"If Buck had stumbled upon Some Like it Hot a year ago, he would probably have either been arrested for loitering without buying anything or in massive credit card debt by now. As it stands, he’s been in enough in the last three months to get a double eyebrow raise from his accountant.
When Kevin had asked why Buck had spent the equivalent of a small country’s GDP at a random coffee shop at least five miles out of the way of the studio, his gym, or the homes of anyone he knows, Buck had said the coffee was just that good. Which wasn’t strictly a lie, if you only count the first time he’d gone in."
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Musician!Buck meets (temporary) Barista!Eddie and proceeds to be a very normal amount of obsessed with him.
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27 May 2026
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It’s almost like — like Buck’s holding a possible thing in his hands, fragile and fledgling, born too early. It’s not the first time he’s felt this way, with Eddie. It’s happened before, mostly in kitchens.
“Did that guy tell you the name of the suite he put us in?”
The corner of Eddie’s mouth lifts. There, Buck supposes, is his answer.
“Yeah. Honeymooners, huh? Should we tell him about our disaster of a trip?”
His stomach lurches. God. Eddie’s taking this in stride; Buck should be thankful for it. Instead, he’s afraid he’ll be sick all over their shoes.
or: a pining buck has to navigate the Emotional Saw Trap that is the road trip back from new mexico. eddie, quite literally, comes along for the ride.
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25 May 2026
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“Am I going to break the universe if I tell him stuff?” Future Buck asks.
“You might just break him.” Other Eddie says nonchalantly.
“Wait, how are you going to break me?” Eddie asks.
Other Eddie rolls his eyes. “You know what, I think I’ll let you figure this out.”
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The one where Eddie wakes up in the future, meets an older version of himself married to Buck and has a gay crisis.
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- Part 1 of Define the Future
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13 May 2026
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Buck is confronted with the undeniable truth: Eddie Diaz, as it turns out, is beautiful both as a man and as a woman.
Fuck my life, Buck thinks faintly.
Unfortunately, his mild panic does not go unnoticed.
“You—you like me?” Eddie asks quietly, voice disbelieving. “Other me? Me as a woman?”
Buck turns wide, panicked eyes to Eddie. “No!”
“I know what your face looks like when you’re into someone, Buck,” Eddie says under his breath. “You’re—looking at her.”
“Politely. I’m polite,” Buck stresses. He bumps into the counter and comes to an abrupt stop. He realises only then, of course, that both Lady Eddie and Lady Buck are staring at him.
OR: Buck and Eddie crash the car. The universe, finally sick of their shit, kidnaps them.
OR: a totally, super-serious spec fic featuring inter-dimensional travel.
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- Part 11 of ejo + 911
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07 May 2026
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Eddie’s eyes snap open, his vision blurry and disoriented as he registers the unmistakable form of a toddler sitting on his sternum. His cheeks are round, blonde curls a mess and a pacifier is dangling half out of his mouth.
The kid is also patting his face like a bongo drum.
“Hi,” the child says, grinning wildly, just before the pacifier drops directly onto Eddie’s cheek.
He sits up with a jolt, instinct taking over and the kid topples sideways with a giggle, landing in the space beside him on the bed.
“What the fuck?” Eddie mutters, fully awake and adrenaline rising as he looks up and sees Buck… who is lying casually on the other side of the bed cradling another child.
“Don’t swear,” Buck says absently, like he’s not currently holding an unknown child.
“Don’t… did you just say don’t swear? Who the hell—” Eddie stammers, his eyes darting between the two kids and Buck.
“It’s us,” Buck says, like that explains anything, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
Or; Eddie makes a wish by accident and it comes true. So he and Buck spends the day with their younger selves aging up three years every time they falls asleep.
Orr; Take two, times two… in threes?
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- Part 2 of three.
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04 May 2026
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"Eddie?" Shannon picks up on the fourth ring. "Everything okay?"
"I kissed a man," he says.
The silence on the other end stretches for nine thousand years. Eddie can hear Shannon breathing. He can hear his own heartbeat slamming against his ribs. He stares at the apartment building through his windshield, at the lit window on the fourth floor that might belong to E. Buckley, and waits for his ex-wife to say literally anything at all.
"You what?"
"I kissed a man, Shannon. Just now. I was delivering food and he opened the door and I just— I kissed him. On the mouth. And I don't know why."
Another silence. Then a sound Eddie recognizes with dawning horror as Shannon trying very, very hard to suppress a laugh.
"Shannon."
"I'm processing."
"You're laughing."
"I'm processing." She fails spectacularly. "I'm sorry, I just— you kissed a man? Edmundo Diaz? The same Edmundo Diaz who wouldn't watch Brokeback Mountain with me because it made him 'uncomfortable'?"
"It did make me uncomfortable!"
"Yeah, Eddie, I'm starting to understand why."
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Being kissed by your Uber Eats delivery driver? Worse things have happened.- Language:
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25 Apr 2026
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The doctors start prepping them, as a flood of interns come into the room to watch two grown men be pulled apart like two meats on a stick.
“That x-ray is giving soulmates.” One of the interns says as they inspect the x-ray still hung up on the wall.
“What the hell does giving soulmates mean?” Buck murmurs against Ravi’s shoulder, quiet enough that it’s just for them.
Ravi laughs.
Or: Buck and Ravi get pinned together by a rebar pole. They get a few stitches, a broken arm and a platonic soulmate in exchange.
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- Part 1 of it's nice to have a friend
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24 Apr 2026
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so beautiful i teared up at least 3 separate times i think
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“Maybe we should bring them to the firehouse,” Buck jokes. “Like mascots.”
“I, uh, I don’t know if I’m ready for that just yet,” Eddie blushes.
“Oh, yeah,” he nods, going along with the bit. “You want to like… give them time to settle in?”
“More so I don’t really want to come out to all of A Shift with a gay Build-A-Bear,” Eddie clarifies.Or, Eddie builds a very gay Build-A-Bear. Unless you ask Buck. Then it's just a very rainbow ally bear.
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22 Apr 2026
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Eddie climbs onto the bed. They sit side by side, legs extended, two letter L’s protruding off the page. Instead of pressing play like Eddie is expecting, Buck laughs.
“What?” Eddie asks, an instinctive smile caressing his lips.
Buck grips his jaw, thumb brushing over his teeth before he bites at the broad nail, stifling. “Just—did you ever see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory?”
Eddie nods. “Gene Wilder.”
“That’s the one,” Buck chuckles around his thumb, then lets it slide free. “You know the grandparents?”
Then Eddie’s laughing too. “Jesus,” he says on an exhale.
“I’m just saying,” says Buck, still giggling. “I’ve seen our future, and it’s bright.”
Or: God created the world in seven days. It only takes Eddie six to surreptitiously move into Buck’s house.
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20 Apr 2026
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amourissima (you used to call me comme ça) by beetlesandstars, kryptonian
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
29 Mar 2026
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“Buck, seriously.” Eddie catches his eye, staring intently, attempting to beam the anxiety straight into Buck’s brain. “I know we’re both playing it cool, but… How are you not freaking out right now? I’m freaking out right now.”
Buck quirks an eyebrow. “I thought you didn’t panic.”
“I don’t,” Eddie insists. “But I woke up in the wrong body this morning, and I had to—” He lowers his voice, ducking closer to Buck. “I touched your dick, man. Which—you know.”
A violation of boundaries. A line that can’t be uncrossed. Something Eddie feels deeply guilty about.
“You touched my dick?” Buck asks, approximately one billion decibels louder than necessary.
The room around them stills.
Or: Buck and Eddie switch bodies. Chaos ensues.
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- Part 15 of ejo + 911
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18 Apr 2026
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“Eddie, you can’t just give up.”
“I’m not giving up.”
Buck turns and points an accusing carrot at him. “You are. You’re doing that self-punishment thing where you think that because you messed up before you don’t deserve to try again. Which is stupid.”
“Every relationship I’ve ever had has been a disaster,” Eddie says, sounding angry, but not at Buck. “I never do any of it right. I’ve never done a single part of it right.”
“Eds, I know it feels that way, but when you find the right girlfri-”
“I don't want another girlfriend Buck!” Eddie yells.
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Buck remains determined to find Eddie the love of his life.
Eddie already has, he's just coming to terms with it.
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08 Apr 2026
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"Can I try something?"
"Yeah, sure, g-go ahead, man." Buck cringes, and even that is adorable.
"Close your eyes."
"E-Eddie," Buck croaks helplessly.
"I'm not gonna bite, Buckley. Trust me?"
Buck closes his eyes. Squeezes them shut, really.
Eddie tugs his face into the curve of Buck's shoulder before he can lose the nerve, Buck's pulse fluttering wildly against the tip of Eddie's nose.
Buck is struggling after the events in New Mexico. Eddie decides to move in with him about it.
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08 Apr 2026
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Eddie realized dimly that his hand was still lifted, phone pressed to his ear, the call still live – Buck’s voice spilling through the speaker, thin and panicked and far too loud:
“…Eddie, what is happening? Talk to me. Eddie.”
He should have kissed him before leaving the house, Eddie thought, as his knees gave out.
He should have kissed him more, period. Every chance he got. In the kitchen, from behind, hands wrapped around his waist. On the couch, during the quiet lull of a movie neither of them was watching. In the parking lot before a shift, just because he could. In the locker room as the bells went off – a good luck charm tucked just out of sight.
He should have stopped acting like there’d always be another time.
Or,
Eddie gets shot. Again.
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- Part 6 of buddie nde fest
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06 Apr 2026
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“Eddie,” Buck breathes, laughing humorlessly, his voice wet and thick. “If we sat here and-- and went through the list of things I want…” his hands gesture aimlessly. “We’d-- be here all night.”
Eddie nods, catching Buck’s eyes again. “Maybe-- we start with mine, then.”
The space between them feels charged with static, like the second before the thunder finally rumbles.
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Eddie’s finally choosing to be better-- finally choosing joy. He just needs a push or two in the right direction, first.
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- Part 1 of seabird 'verse
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01 Apr 2026
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i know it’s not very sexy when somebody loves you this much and knows you this well by fleetinghearts for greencreekwolf
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
29 Jul 2025
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“I mean,” Eddie backtracks hastily, “that I probably don’t—uh, that I don’t want a hook up. Just the single, uh, kiss. For research.”
“Right,” Buck nods. “For research.”
They turn back to the TV, sipping beers and spooning dessert, room quiet save for the telenovela playing. Buck, gun to his head, could not tell you who or what is on the screen right now. The brave, strong part of his brain has surrendered shamefully, white flag hoisted while the rest of his brain—stupid, stupid—hosts a skillfully imagined supercut of his best friend kissing men. It’s surprisingly new subject matter for him. What’s unsurprising is his distaste for every conjured scenario, discarding each indistinguishable stranger until the reel buffers on something more… familiar.
“Well—”
Eddie waits a patient minute for Buck to continue before asking, “Well, what?”
“I just mean—if it’s just a kiss, right.” Buck pauses. “You could, uh. You could try it with me.”
or, buck thinks kissing men and women feels pretty much the same. eddie’s not buying it. sometimes settling a bet requires kissing your best friend, a lot, for research
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23 Mar 2026
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Eddie’s massage therapist is Briana.
He confirmed this six times: twice on the website, once during a phone call he made from his truck in the grocery store parking lot like it was a covert operation, three more times in the confirmation email.
"Eddie?"
He looks up.
That is not Briana.
The guy standing in the hallway entrance is tall and built like someone whose job description wildly undersold the physical reality. There's a birthmark above his eye that shouldn't work but does, way too much, and his scrubs fit him well. They — okay. They fit him obscenely well, actually.
His arms. God, his arms. They're just arms. Everyone has arms.
Eddie is suddenly, involuntarily, thinking about what it would feel like to have those arms braced on either side of him. Or around him. Or holding him down.
Which is not a thought he's ever had about a man's arms before. He's pretty sure. He's almost sure. He's going to move on from this.
He is going to stop looking at the arms.
Any second now.
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It's just a massage. Eddie can survive that. Right?- Language:
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08 Mar 2026